I’ve gone from posting once a day (twice a day even!) to weekly, and now, we’re 15 days into a new year, and I have not graced these pages with a post.
I almost feel ashamed at my tardiness LOL!
The truth, and reality is that much has been happening in real life, that has impacted my online presence. I wish I could say that I am learning to juggle it better, but the truth is, I haven’t. If anything, I’ve let the ball drop far more often than I’ve been keeping it up in the air.
While life slowly begins to go back to normal for many of us after the last 2 years of limbo, I have to say that it’s not been so for me. For me, it’s gone off on a tangent, and at this point, I’m not quite sure where it’s heading! Not all of it is bad though! 😀
I skipped sharing my thoughts on my birthday last year, as well as my annual year-end recap. I had much I wanted to say, yet there was much I did not want to say. I know some of you look forward to those sort of ramblings, as you’ve shared with me, and I’m sorry that I did not indulge in self-reflection. The last time I shared one was this one, and much of how I felt in April 2021 is how I’m feeling now.
A lot of it has to do with wanting to take a little step back from the online life.
I’d been doing that for a few years, but last year, I hit a tipping point. Realistically, there is very little you need to know about me, and I mean it in the nicest possible way! 🙂 What you really want to know (if anyone’s still even reading) is what I think of a product or service. Maybe not even that, as I’m never going to be half as interesting as many other bloggers or what are commonly referred to now as ‘influencers’. Again, I say this in the nicest possible way with no malice.
The influencer life, living your life in front of people, is not for me.
That said however, I do enjoy the interactions I have on Instagram, as much as I detest that platform. People on my feed are just nicer and maybe just less judgmental than on other platforms I’m on. I consciously took myself off other platforms, as I felt that it was turning me into a person that I would not like at all. I was allowing myself to wallow in negativity and to indulge in petty sniping. It was getting ugly, and I caught myself just in time, before I morphed into someone I could no longer recognise.
Perhaps, despite my advanced years, I am still very naive to think that people actually care about others, or that they value relationships and maturity. The reality is that it’s just a children’s playground out there, with cliques, gangs and bullies who prefer a sensational tabloid story to a more mundane fact. All’s wonderful until someone takes against you and then, it’s open war – if you’re not on my side, you must be the enemy!
It’s interesting to observe, but troubling to see what society has turned into – vigilantes, for the most part.
Still, as they say, your online experience is what you make of it. So that’s what I’ve been doing – making it generally a more positive space, spending less time with strangers, and living more in the moment. I check in a few times a day to catch on the news (it cannot be denied that it’s quicker to receive news via social media!) but that’s about it these days.
I am of course still growing my little business that’s focused on dogs. It’s been such a challenge, as so much of it is new to me. I’m now a baker for dogs, who seem to enjoy what I churn out, even if I’ve never been able to bake anything fit for human consumption LOL! 😀 It’s been an interesting ride over the last year, and almost gratifying that it’s gotten so much support from people who understand and appreciate what we make. Sure, there have been hiccups and people who spout nonsense from their rear-ends, but we’ve been encouraged for the most part by the positive reactions and response to the dog treats that we make.
If there’s one major reason I’ve been lax about updating my blog is the time I’ve spent and invested in learning about canine diets and how we can make a better, more beneficial treat. My little pup is of course, the most willing taste-tester of them all! 😀
But what I hope to do this year, is to find a little more balance in my life.
I’d like to find a little more time to spend blogging – be it about beauty or just a general musing. Blogging and writing allows me to keep in touch with a part of me that is just me. I miss that, and it feels like if I don’t write, my ability to speak and think regresses a little LOL!
But yes, balance would be good. A little more yin and yang.
The last 2 years has been quite a ride in more ways than one. I’m glad many people I know are still here, riding that wave of life. If you’re still reading my blog, or reading this at all, thank you for sticking by 🙂
If there’s one wish I have for you too, it’s that you too find balance in your life this year.
I’ll be back soonish 🙂